Broken heart~

I'm hungry at the time 1:21 am

yet I still have my assignments to do

in fact it is the 3D drawing

which requires alot of brain usage

think think think~

but I couldn't think much.

I'm very sad.

My heart is broken into pieces

after hearing the truth from you.

I was fixing my heart till 1/2 already

and now it breaks into even smaller pieces

which I don't know how long I'm able to fix it anymore.

I felt heartless

because my tears falls without I feeling sad.

I heard lightning storms right outside

while I'm sitting on my balcony writing this.

The weather is super cold now

and I'm freezing.

I no longer felt the warmth within me.

Out of sudden, I just missed you

flashback on everything we've done.

why is this happening on me.

I noticed I've being emo for quite some time already

but I just couldn't help it.

It's because I like you a lot

that makes my heart broken.

You're my heart breaker, you know?

Blog can no longer become my secret hideout

because I know you'll read it when you're online.

So I'm back to be the old me once again

keeping all in,

without making anyone worries.

I'm feeling pressure in my heart

that makes me uneasy for the past 2 weeks.

Its suffering and pain

but I have to deal with it

its my heart after all.

I will be disappearing from you right now

because I felt uneasy if you're beside me

I will be jealous

I will feel the broken heart of mine

I will feel pain either.

You've done nothing wrong

just that I'm the one foolish.

There's nothing much we can talk about anymore.

I'm sorry for everything.

Its almost 2 am already

and I can't stand the cold and my tiredness

back to bed I will be.

Praying everything will be fine for you.

I hope we will never contact each other anymore.

What color is your energy?

Purple

Idealistic and full of spiritual power, you have one of the strongest and most influential energies. With a strong intuitive and psychic ability (though you may not know it), you have an effortless influence over those around you without them - and most likely you - even noticing. Every little change about you, be it emotionally or atmospherically will affect those around or closest to you. Few notice it - when people do start to notice, however, it makes them feel unsettled and unsure of you, so make sure to be careful with just how many things you change!

You have a very protective nature and often put others before you without thinking twice. Sometimes however you’ll find yourself questioning your actions and will try to change it - don’t. Not only are you selfless (to an extent), you’re most likely to be extremely empathic - maybe one of your friends is feeling low and they haven’t mentioned it? Doesn’t matter - something inside of you will click and tell you that something isn’t right. No matter what emotion they’re feeling, chances are you’ll feel it too and be able to carefully slip it out of them as to what’s going on.

You’re also creative to the extreme; often you let yourself escape reality and create new thoughts, worlds and ideals for you to live by and start to hate what’s real and long for what you created yourself. You’re a very passionate person who loves to feel inspired but when deprived of the things you love, you become difficult to handle, depressive and often self-abusive.

Remember: you’re full of intensity, and although a lot of the time it’s something that people gravitate towards, it can also push people away and make them not want to get any closer. Take care to limit how extreme your feelings and actions are, otherwise you may end up feeling quite alone.

Positive Qualities:
- Intuitive; empathic; open-minded; creative; somewhat selfless; compelling; mystifying; impulsive.

Negative Qualities:
- Tend to go to extremes; unbalanced; difficult; secretive; you can be quite manipulative though not always with cruel intentions; impulsive (not always a good thing!).

devil speaking in me~

Dude
2 years!
you kept me in sleep!
So do you enjoyed being an angel ehh?
I don't see you enjoying at all
remember,
I see everything you see
I feel everything you feel
I know your thoughts.
You felt SAD
right?
you can deny
but you can't lie to me
none of your days are truly happy at all right?
you noticed your tears never falls?
because I'm not full asleep!
You kept me awake a lil
because you're afraid
and keep me as a protection.
you're a coward
I knew it all the while
afraid of all things
you should've let me awake
and I'll overcome the fear of yours
so you feel no fear.
You choosed to believe everyone
and now you finally realise
that you have to DOUBT everything!
like me, doubt every single thing
making you extra careful in all ways.
You gave ppl a second chance
but end up what did you get?
The whole thing repeated for the 2nd time.
Hurtful? Why la you so dump?
Be cruel,
show no mercy,
and they dare not repeat it anymore.
Who really cares bout this kind of friend anymore?
You gave up things for another's purpose
and end up you get nothing.
If its me, I don't care who they are,
save yourself is better than anything else.
You believe and fulfill your promises,
and none of their promises will be fulfilled.
What's the point of having faith on ass like them?
You believed your heart will be healed
you believed you found the right ones
you believed you can.
Yeah..
Tell me your results..
Your heart is made of glass
once broken it can never be like it used to be
you can never be healed!
You end up giving up on her
because I've showed you you're nothing to her
and continue to dream on if you don't believe.
Things you do, without my pressure,
you think you can do it?
Stop running away already.
Accept the fact that I, devil suits you more
I will make sure you have no more sorrow.
I'll teach you everything from the inside
and do as I command.
Be gone, angel
instead of keeping you in sleep
I shall vanish you.
He doesn't need any kindness anymore.
You've made him had enough of hurt.
I shall remove his heart
and be like me.
Heartless.
Cruel.
Evil.
This is the world you're facing
Without me you can't survive.
So
welcome to the black parade.
it's time to bleed it out!

女人跟着你，是要你疼的..♥

女孩喜欢上了男人，对他很好，是很好的那种。她给他洗衣服，收拾房间，早晨买早点给他，小鸟依人
的靠在男人身边。男人觉得有人这样无微不至的照顾是件很惬意的事情，于是他们顺理成章地在一起。
男人习惯有女孩在身边的日子，可后来，女孩就离开了，是当男人在睡梦中的时候。

男人讲完之后一脸茫然的问我：“你说，我哪里做错了！我给她钱买化妆品，有人欺负她，我把那人揍了
个半死，我这么爱她，她为什么就走了呢？”

我安静的听完，没办法给这个疑惑的男人一个满意的答案。我们从咖啡店走出来，过马路时男人瞅一个
空挡便快步跑到对面向车流这边的我招手催我过去。我有些无奈的笑了。

我问男人是不是不愿意牵女孩的手。他说在家抱抱可以，在外面多不好意思啊。我说他过马路时一定比
女孩快，他点头说你怎么知道？我说女孩在刷碗扫地的时候，他一定是悠闲的看着电视。男人摸着头说
自己似乎明白了。我说，如果明白了就去挽回吧。

希望男人是真的明白了。

其实很多女人外表很坚强，内心却还是柔弱，需要男人呵护的。她不在乎你给了她多钱，却会永远记得
你调皮的从路边花坛偷回的那朵放到她手中的月季花。你们过马路时候，在左边的你紧紧握住她的手，
不论是什么年纪，都会让她觉得安全。

世界上女人很多，美丽的、温柔的、聪明的、可爱的……可无论什么类型的女人，期待幸福的心情都是一
样的。所以她们等待着一个男人的出现，等着这个男人对她们好。

其实女人期待的对自己好，是件很简单的事情。

她只希望自己的男人不要因为忙碌而忘记她的生日。想听他在耳边轻声说句“快乐吧，我的宝贝。”这时
玫瑰也可以省略。她只希望做家务累的时候，他轻轻抚摩自己的额头说声“宝贝，喝了牛奶再睡吧。”即
使对于家务男人一窍不通。她只希望害怕或者孤单的时候，男人在身边搂着她的肩膀坚定的对她说“别怕
，有我。”

是的，有的时候，爱意是在不经意间流露的。可能男人你自己没感觉，可是女人却字一句的记在了心底
。她们会用更多的爱恋回报你。

尝试着在出门之前吻一下你的女人。常常温存的告诉她，你有多么的爱她。休息的时候抢过她手里要洗
的衣物。天气好的时候带她到公园散步。睡觉前给她讲讲公司里，回家路上看到的有趣的事情。偶尔耐
心倾听女人讲的事情，即使你对白菜5角或是4角一斤不感兴趣。在她穿了新裙子的时候，认真的看2分钟
，然后诚心夸奖一下她。如果裙子大了，就说你又苗条了，如果裙子小了，就说如果大一点会更漂亮。
逛街的时候可以拉着女人的手或者揽着她的肩膀，因为这样，她会觉得幸福。女人都希望在平凡中被呵
护，被爱着。你温存的点点滴滴一定能让她闻到幸福的芳香。其实女人要的幸福很简单。你要耐心的对
你的女人好，不需要如火山火热，也不需要如海浪汹涌，细水长流就足够让她幸福一辈子。

一个黄昏，我接到那个男人的电话。他很兴奋的告诉我，说女孩又回到了他身边。我问他是怎么做的，
他说费了很大力气才约到女孩散步，还专挑路口走。过马路时候站在女孩左边，紧紧握住她的手。我笑
了，说你现在明白了吧。男人嘿嘿的说：“明白了，明白了，她跟我，是需要我疼的。”

是啊，当上帝用亚当的肋骨造了一个夏娃时，就预示着男人该认真照顾身边那个是自己身上肋骨变的女
子，好好爱她吧，否则你自己的胸口也是会疼痛的。

跟着你，是要你疼的！！

tired~

I'm tired~
of everything~
where are you~
where is your love~
where is your feeling~
where is my feeling either~
where is my tears~
where is my handworking-ness~
where is my foolishness~
where is my aggressiveness~
where is my motivation~
where is my dream~
where is my laugh~
where is my kindness~
where is my freedom~
where is my faith~
where is my trust~
where is my love~
where is my aim~
where is my success~
where is my smile~
where is my sweetness~
where is my romanticness~
where is my crazyness~
where is my panic-ness~
where is my appreciation~
where is my heart~
where is my justice~
where is my sleepness~
where is my depressness~
where are my talents~
where are my true friends~
where am I going~

I totally don't know..

如果哪天我放弃你了，不是我不喜欢你或不在乎你了，而是你真把我伤透了

亲爱的，

如果有一天我放弃了你，

请不要怀疑我是否恋上另一个人，

是因为我发觉你不珍惜我，

离开你并非我愿意，

我不想拿放弃当威胁，

因为那两个字我不曾轻易说出口因为我爱你．

假如有天我真正选择了离开，

那么对不起不是想要你的挽留，

而是对你真的死了心，

有些人总是在失去之后才知道曾经的美好，

在我决定离开你之前我会给你好多机会，

如果你把我给你的机会当做你放纵的资本，

有天我会真的走出来，

虽然我会痛会伤心，

可我了解自己，

一旦爱上一个人会全心全意，

可一旦我真正决定了死心，

那么我只会哭一次，

然后选择忘记，

不要以为感情的事如果没有出现第三者的话很容易复合，

我的字典里没有这个概念，

如果我选择了放弃选择了离开，

那么我便再也不会回头，

在你生命中．．我重要吗？

你有在乎过我吗？

每次发给你的信息你认真看了吗？一直以来都是我自作多情而已吗？



不要让你身边的人等得太久了！
如果有天我真的消失了，

你会不会再找到我．也许我只是你生命中的一个过客而已吧

Perfection?

Kenzo is a student
a professional designer and also an engineer
famous among his college
a top model too
also
HE IS SINGLE =]
that makes him one of the top 'WANTED' list among the girls

nice, perfect and good looking huh?
who ever knows what he had being through?
threatening, torturing and full of sadness past
until he feels no more hurt
and tears will never fall anymore
he has alot of master pieces at home
where each pieces, contains his memories
ppl who can understand it, will always leave with tears
and he only allows certain ppl to see it

in a particular day
when he is having a design competition
he met a contestant sitting beside him
smiling at him all the time
he can't stand the smile
and he keeps peaking at her
from that day onwards
he started to get close to her
obviously, he's interested on her
follows her everywhere and helps her every time
its been so long since he ever wanted to love

texting her, calling her on the phone
he treasures all the moment
but the girl never shows out how she feels
Kenzo often doubt she dislike him
sooner and later, he found out she had a crush
he's so upset bout it
avoiding her at all cost
and her best friend came to him
chilling him all the while
hoping he won't feel bad
ending up he started to like her
but he knows he couldn't
as she is already long taken
he forced himself not to go any further
but he couldn't

someone found out about this news
and the news is spread to the girl he chased
he was afraid now
afraid to lose her
he is also afraid to lose this other girl too
in confusion he stays
for months he had been like this
emo-ing all the while
he became very quiet in his life
and surprisingly he starts to sell off
all his master pieces he drew on spot
but these pieces of art
nobody can ever understands it
its very complicated
it brings confusion, love, and hatred

soon, he is absent for classes
which he had never done it before
lecturers and friends starts asking around
worrying of his disappearance
but no one every knows what happened
a month passed
and the secret is broken
Kenzo is already dead
according to the doctor,
he said that Kenzo always keeps everything inside his heart
as all the bad things added up
he couldn't stand it anymore
and when it burst
a heart attack attacks him
so that is the past he had
he tried not to be like that anymore
he always tries to smile
and be happy
until when he had the feeling of love
everything seems complicated already
he started to keep it all in again
drawing all his confusion out
hoping someone can help him solve it out
but none understands it
nor able to help him
he ended up keeping all in until it overloads
and it burst.

Kenzo died of heart attack
an unbelievable death of a talented student

personality test again~

You are very loved. Everyone finds you a welcoming, warm person. They look to you for advice and comfort, and someone to just have a good time with.

Your personality is seen as cliche and average, but in truth, you have talents and skills and ideas that no one has thought of before.

You are someone with style. You are good with colors, and you know how to color people's worlds and minds to your way.

You think new relationships are a coloring book, to fill them in with fulfilling conversations and meetings. You may seem nice and perfect and beautiful, you have a policy of "forgive but never forget". You always remember your enemies if you have any, and you know where to steer.

Sometimes, when you're completely lost, you are dependent on friends for help. You hope they'll be there for you, but sometimes you fear that they won't be. That is something you are afraid of. You are ready to give, but you are also ready to accept.

To many, it seems like you change your personality just for different people, but in fact, you are the one thing that's not changing. Other people grow on you, and grow fond of you, not the other way around. You are always yourself, and you are definite.

fate~

msn connection problem
facebook account disabled
all there's left is here
the only place where I called home

In this devil world of mine
I could feel everything I've gone through once again
one of the worse
is that tears can't fall at all
suffering there quietly
and acting like nothing happened
is what I do best

I wanted to talked to you
but you did not reply my smses
I believed that you're busy with your stuffs
I don't wanna interrupt you
but I couldn't control myself for missing you
everything in my world seems blur now
its because I care
I care bout you
that makes me worry
and feels hurt for everything
all I could ever do
is staying far apart looking at you
praying for your best

time
passes very fast
and the past can't return
money can't buy either
sad memories in you
I hope you could forget it
I'm begging for your forgiveness
with that simple reason
I like you alot
I can guarantee it won't happen anymore
let time stalls
as I can't do anything more
if you could really find me on your own
I will definately be very happy
and I'm waiting for that day all the while
when someday you felt my disappearance
you'll feel that you need me
that's the day
I will confess...

outcome doesn't really matters to me anymore
we could do everything secretly
but its your choice
either we have fate
or we are fated not to be together
I will appreciate every piece of memory
we had all the time till now

当一个男人做出这些事，他真的很爱你了

很多女人常说男人的话不能信，谁都能靠的住，就是男人靠

不住之类的话，很可悲，只能说你没有遇到好男人，或者说，根本不了解男人。一个男人如果真的爱你的话，就一定会做出下面这些事：

一、愿意为你掏钱。
钱，在感情生活中不是最重要的，但是是必须的。一个男人如果是真的爱你的话，就不会为你去计算钱，只要你需要的合理，有能力支付，就一定不会不答应。因为在他心里，连你都是他的了，为什么还不能给你花钱？

二、愿意听你诉苦
女人常常会有很多的不开心事情，在男人看来很多只是很小的事情，甚至不值得去在乎。一个爱你的男人，会希望了解到你在想什么，会愿意听你的诉苦，听完你很多的话后，再发表下评论，安慰下你。

三、愿意为你让自己受苦
年轻的男人，大多数是爱拼搏的，自己苦一点，累一点，没有关系，经济条件有限的人，会自己减少开支，来付出在感情上，有能力的人，则会在做每一件事的时候，都在考虑关于你的未来。自己吃饭的时候，会在想你有没有吃，自己在娱乐的时候，总会想到要是能把你带去就好了，自己在开心的时候，总会想到你这时候会是怎样的心情，总之不管自己处于什么状态，都会想到你。

四、愿意为你收场
两个人在一起吃饭，常常女生最后都会说吃不下了，爱你的男人，会情愿帮你的吃完剩下的。现在这个年龄的男人，大多数在家里是被当着宝贝养大的，一直都是家人付出，自己享受，如果真的很爱一个人，他会放下自己，去为了爱的人。

五、在关键时候，总会护住你
两个人一起逛街的时候，爱你的男人会走在靠马路的一边，而你则在靠马路里面的一边，这样你会很安全。登山的时候，爱你的男人总会在你后面，可以保护着你向上爬。下雨的时候，总会把伞向你那边多倾斜一点，即使自己淋湿了，也不想让你受到一点点的雨淋。刮大风的时候，会紧紧抱住你，不让你被风吹到……不管在什么情况下，都愿意尽量减少给你带去的伤害。

一个好男人，是需要一个好女人好好把握的，也许你现在身边的男人并不完美，并不是你一直所憧憬的那样的王子般的男人，但是他只要是真心对你好的，你就应该去珍惜，一个女人对男人最大的珍惜，就是好好的去爱他，心里只有他一个，愿意和他一起去承受生活中要面对的。
最后，希望全天下所有真心相爱的人，好好在一起，好好的彼此珍惜，共同面对。

Truth beneath the grave~

the death of Henry the knight

everyone in the palace feels sad

villagers crying and children hide inside the house

everyone felt the lost of a hero

funeral to be held in 3 days time

where the whole country came

full of tears bout the lost

unlike the movies

this time rain does not falls

as if god doesn't feel pity at him at all

princess kneed down beside his grave

shading till she has no more tears

and there's a female tailor walked slowly towards the grave

along with purple roses, and left in on the grave

immediately, princess pulled her out the funeral

along with Aaron the knight

she knew

this girl know way too much bout Henry

as he loves purple roses

it is something where only ppl close to him knew

princess forced her to tell her everything she knew bout him

she starred at Aaron

and Aaron quickly looked away with tears

princess knew there's something hidden

something very big till he shaded

'I beg of you.. I just wanted to know the truth of everything..

What do you know bout him? Pls tell me, I beg of you..'

kneeing down and the princess begged

'I hope you listen and forgive him, princess...'

This is the truth that is suppose to be hidden :

I was working in my own shop

my father opened this shop since 30 years back

and 1 day, some robbers broke in trying to rob us

Henry appeared right outside the door

he slayed all of them even they begged for mercy

he smiled at us, and ask whether we're all injured

I broke my ankle and he decided to stay

and tries to heal me completely before he leave

3 days passed and my ankle hasn't fully recovered

Its been so long since I was been taking care like this

I was forced to marry my husband because we had no money

although he loved me a lot, but I don't have a single feel on him

he never ask for anything, not even a baby

and when Henry appeared, I felt love out from no where

on the day when I'm fully recovered

he said it is time for he to leave and return back to the palace

I hugged him and cried, begging him not to go

because I don't know how am I suppose to live without him

I've fell in love with him

we had a long hot kiss

and when we are going to do what we wanna do

he stopped

he dare not continued

'why...?'

'I'm sorry Trina.. I can't...'

'its okay.. I know your heart is with princess...'

I hugged him with tears

and he kissed on my eye

asking me not to cry

saying he will solve this fast

and I waited for him every night for a visit

he often overnight at my place

and went back to princess's room early morning

He loved you in first sight

but he loves me for my attitude

his heart was with you all the time

and suddenly I made him came to me

it is very hard for him.

He had being in a very hard situation

and he wanted to solve it fast

its too hard for him.

choosing 2 person he loves is a very hard decision

he cried every time he came over

and ended up sleeping with tears.

2 weeks passed and he still can't make any decision.

That day, he came over during midnight

he told me he's going for war

I knew he choosed to give up both of us

escaping and praying we both to have happiness.

He left with a kiss on my forehead

and he never came back.'

rain falls right after the talk

they both believed

that Henry is crying

because the truth is exposed

and he doesn't have to hide his tears anymore.

12星座的心

山羊座 12月22～1月19

璞玉

山羊的心就是一塊合氏璧，他們守心如玉，並用平庸掩飾，外人看來，似乎只是掩耳盜鈴式的防線，或者是安撫良知的最後一 道誓言，然而畢竟山羊守著的是心中對愛情的那份憧憬。無緣之人只看到外面的粗糙，當廢品丟棄處理，連歎息都吝於給予，只有等到一個有足夠耐心和勇氣的人， 懷著堅定的誠心，剖開山羊的內心，會發現居然如此驚豔，至此，不離不棄。

水瓶座 1月20～2月18

玻璃

水瓶本純淨，有著清爽透徹的玻璃心，只是愛了，知道早已吃定了他，所以從來叛逆，蠻橫無理，只在心裏熱愛。不明白為什 麼要那樣去愛，以傷害來取代無處揮灑的熱情。是想被注意嗎，還是不傷害就不知道愛得深？水瓶摔碎了自己的心，用鋒利的玻璃渣刺痛著愛人和自己，深刻的痛感 勾勒著刻骨銘心。最後，愛人走了，水瓶想重新開始，卻總是忘了自己最初的樣子。

雙魚座 2月19～3月20

水晶

雙魚本想平庸快樂的走完人生這個輪回旅程，於是只讓透明的晶瑩蔓延，然而卻往往被生活蹂躪的接近枯萎。冷硬的外貌開始 湧現，任由時間去消磨生命的味道。終於釀成了一顆水晶心，裏面殘存著明媚的夢想，然後將厚重的外殼披上，應付情感中無法避免的傷痛，和這個世界的現實感。 這時，才發現，人生往往只需要一個頓悟，不可預見，只可遇見。

白羊座 3月21～4月20

酒精

羊兒的心原本平靜，甚至對感情有些冥頑不靈，只是某日一團火突如其來，之後無數次，羊兒坐在愛情劇院的一角，完全沈 浸。只有他，只有他能完全讀懂那上上下下如夜空中的煙花一樣耀眼的音階的全部意義，有一種感情曾經燃燒了一切。只是，當整顆心都付之一炬，連火星都不再飛 濺之後，羊兒的心從此就失落了，空蕩蕩的，可以聽到回音。

金牛座4月21～5月20

木頭

愛上了，就一頭紮進去，不管前方是刀山，將自己活生生的劈斷，還是火海，可以猛烈的燃燒殆盡，抑或是深不見底的汪洋， 就這樣心甘情願的腐爛，牛牛的心看似冷漠，實際上卻是最無所顧忌的勇敢。只不過往往還有一種結局，牛牛離愛遠去，卻忘了將心清洗，殘餘的剩渣在心裏慢慢變 質，最後發臭。牛牛發現，原來愛一個人，就是毀了原來的自己。

雙子座 5月21～6月21

沙礫

雙子的心沒有安定感，恰似流動的沙礫，可以任意的在風的引導下變換姿勢和周期。一日卻意外的發現雙子的心中開了一朵 花，所有沙礫都滋養著它的嬌豔，如此堅定不移。之後，雙子寧願沒有之後，狂風又起，沙礫飛舞，竟渾濁了天地。忐忑的心已記不起，蕉樹下多少呢喃燕語。心就 如同沙礫從指尖流走，嘶啞的聲音，如低聲傾訴，純真年代的過去。

巨蟹座 6月22～7月22

水

起初巨蟹的心太清純太易被吹皺，一遇到風，就柔柔緩緩、急急匆匆泛起愛舟。後來，為所愛，自己的心突然間長滿了鬱鬱蔥 蔥一望無際的水草，織成一道燦爛輝煌的風景。再後來，或者如此山野爛漫下去，或者無端打開了缺口，奔湧之下，湮滅了所有。巨蟹很少會給傷害自己的人第二次 機會，因為他們的心是水做的，而有一個詞叫做，覆水難收。

獅子座 7月23～8月22

火

被他愛過，就休想逃脫。獅子是一把火。他要跟愛人一起玉石俱焚。如果有愛，就是獅子的全部生命，沒有愛，則一切都可毀 滅。他從來不要自己，獅子要的，是以火的姿態在愛裏焚燒的那個人。被他愛過，強烈的佔有過，還能愛誰？從此便只有百年孤寂。也許，獅子的心原本不是一團 火，只是在許久以前，為了一個人，不小心打翻了燭臺，從此焚心以火。

處女座 8月23～9月22

冰

曾 醉在水鄉，任年華似水。怎料那寒冷襲來，就此心中冰天雪地，一幅拒人於千里之外的理智面孔掩蓋了躁動的纏綿悱惻。伸出手心，冰冷的雪花融化，如心臟的溫 度。似乎馬路對面，總會突然出現一個愛人模糊的影子，穿著許久以前的衣服，頭髮整齊或蓬亂，他帶走了處女座生命裏永恒的等待。處女座總是懷著一顆冰封的 心，等待著一個注定離散的人。

天秤座 9月23～10月22

金

天 秤座清雅浪漫，卓爾不凡，溫文儒雅，光風霽月，可以用康橋的柔波訴說愛戀，可以用自由的胸懷包裹著情感，也可以用漫長的一生印證愛情的永恒。他們的心時刻 閃耀著奪目的光芒，映照著自己的美好與華麗，無論遭遇怎樣的摧毀打擊，依舊如初，有著年少的夢想與固執的憧憬。也許，他們會在自己的心上鐫刻一個人的名 字，但那又如何，緣起緣滅，仍舊是顆金子般的心。

天蠍座 10月23～11月21

石頭

用 千百年的歲月來雕刻自己的心，風化了棱角，吹散了熱切，讓心擺脫了最初的模樣，揮別輕盈的搖拽，沈澱，積累，驀然回首，如那人仍在等待，算是一種安慰，萬 一人去樓空，蠍子情何以堪。把心打造成了他的樣子，便是回不去了，能做的只是留戀和回憶，並且這懷戀絕非良性，而是惡性循環，直到石頭千瘡百孔，被時間磨 成了粉，蠍子心的碎片，飄落在哪。

人馬座 11月22～12月21

鐵

人 馬可以短暫的和許多人享受愛情，卻不知道和其中的誰一路走去會找到幸福，於是便不敢選擇，生怕玷污了美好的回憶。當火熱過後，人馬的心便頃刻冷卻，冷得如 此徹底和義無反顧，讓人沒有回神的時間。他們堅定著自己的信念和冰涼走著，以為真的什麼都沒有留下，卻不知道自己的心早已是鏽跡斑斑，是記載著關於誰的往 事。

A knight story~

Knight

we so call it servants of the king

they serve the king

war for the king too

becoming a knight has not much requirements

as long as you can fight till your last breath

you're hired

there's a boy

who feels no love

as his parents are dead because of war

everyone ignores him because he's an orphan

in his heart, he doesn't have the feeling of love

he took up the job to become a knight

as they provide foods and place to stay

'Henry the legend knight!'

all the soldiers shouted
bringing victory back to his own country
for defeating and conquered the land of the east
yes, he is the little boy
15 years of wars experience
and he had got promoted to be a knight
a knight that has never been defeated for 15 years
leading a total of 60 thousands soldiers
always come back with victory
and the least lose of soldiers

also
he is always cruel to the enemies
none of his enemies will die in one piece
but he is kind and sweet in the same time
he cares for everyone
he helps everyone in need in his country
all the villagers loves him

soon, one day
the king wanted to meet him face to face
he was so happy as it is the first time he's gonna see him
as he meet the king
the king offered him a high pay work
and Henry accept it without thinking
so he is allowed to stop parcipitate in wars for the next 3 years
tomorrow will be his 1st day of working

Henry waited outside the palace excitedly for the guards to direct him
and he is directed to a garden within the palace
beautiful flowers all around
with a small lake full of fishes
the guard told him
'your duty is to protect this precious princess that the king only had
don't ask why, and fulfill your duty'
the knight enters quietly and wanted to give her a morning call
on the beautiful and big royal bed
lies a gorgeous, pretty and lovely princess
with a pretty smile on her face even when she's sleeping
Henry immediately fell for her

'who are you~?'
the princess rubbed her eyes and said softly
'Henry the knight at your service'
she smiled
and command him to do lots of silly stuffs
the joys starts from here
everyday they have lots of fun playing around
and Henry needs to be with her 24-7
he couldn't resist the pretty smile she had when she's sleeping
and he looks at her face for the whole night
for the very first time
he felt love exist

one year passed
and they are always joyful everyday
on that very afternoon
when they are playing in the garden
a prince came close towards the princess
immediately Henry took out his sword
pointing it directly on the prince neck
'chill, legendary knight, I'm the son of King Jerry, prince John'
he withdrawed his sword and apologized
Prince John knee down and kissed the princess hand
and they walked around chit-chatting along with Henry guarding

day by day
prince John came to the garden
and princess will always smile when she sees him
Henry knew
prince John has stolen her heart
he also knew
that he could never be with princess
because he has no blood of the royal family
all he can do is protect her
and now, there's someone who can take care of her
loving her always which he can never do it
that makes Henry smiled
as long as princess is happy
he will always be happy.

So Henry told the king that he wants to go for war again
to serve the king and earn victories
he lied
that he's tired of taking care of the princess
the king said, that there's a final war with the north location
where there's gonna be a huge lose of soldiers
and he doesn't want Henry to die
Henry insists, and the king had no choice but to allow him
so he left for the war
leading all his loyal 60 thousand soldiers
off they go, heading north

few weeks later, princess found out that Henry has been missing
she asked the king where he is
and the king replied
'Henry went for war with the north empire'
'but dad, isn't that the empire that has war with us for more than 4 years
and till now there isn't a win or lose yet?'
'yes my dear, Henry said he's tired of taking care of you
and he promised to end this war and bring victory back'
princess cried when she heard that
'tired of taking care of me? why... what I've done to him to make him says that...'
she waited, and waited
outside of the main gate for him to come back

2 years passed
and princess didn't give up waiting for Henry the knight
and one day, the soldiers are all back!
princess immediately rush to the crowds
'we have end the war with VICTORY!'
all soldiers cheered loudly
and all of them went to enjoy themselves
princess start asking and searching for Henry the knight
but whenever she asked bout him
the soldiers will look away and ignored her
till when all the soldiers are all gone
stands a man in front of her
Aaron the knight, Henry's partner
she asked
'where's Henry? I don't see him anywhere'
Aaron sighed, looking up at the sky to prevent tears dropping out
and hand over her a letter
'its for you, my princess..
Henry sacrificed himself when fighting the king..'
and he walked away patting on her shoulder

'saying that this moment is the last to you whom i loved so much
even if you try to turn it back, even if you hold onto me crying, i was the one who said no and bid our farewell

i always act strong,
but i'm a cowardly man who didn't have the confidence to protect you forever and left

don't love someone like me again
don't make someone to miss again
one who looks at only you and needs only you
meet someone who loves you so much they can't go a day without you.. please

hurting, you try to hold me back,
but i'm a cowardly man who doesn't have the confidence to give happiness to anyone beside her

don't love someone like me again
don't make someone to miss again
one who looks at only you and needs only you
meet someone who loves you so much they can't go a day without you

even if we are ever to regret our breakup
i can't do anything but give you our farewell

don't cry in pain counting the time that's passed
don't miss a foolish love that's already passed
one who looks at only you and needs only you
meet someone who loves you so much they can't go a day without you..

please, i hope that you'll be happy
let's never meet again...'

now she realised
Henry loves her all the time
he was jealous and happy in the same time
he jealous, because she had met a prince
he was happy, because someone could take over his place
and take care her, giving her things he couldn't give as a knight
it is a forbidden love that Henry's going through
he lied he's tired taking care of her
because he is totally replaced by prince John
she doesn't really feel the presence of Henry since then
so he choosed to leave quietly
and vanish from princess memories
she cried out loud
she hoped she had realised it earlier
but everything is already too late.......

2 way road split

Leon was walking home
from the crowded city
back to his house in the woods
yes it is
it has been a tired day
he rushes home to have a great bath
and to have a beautiful sleep~

while he was on his way home
he meet 2 fairies
1 in green and 1 in red
both are lost and needed help to go back to their house
they stays near the woods
since it was also Leon's destination
so he agreed to bring them back home

as soon as he reaches outside the woods
the 2 fairies thanked him
and inviting him to heaven for a visit
swinging their wands
and 2 magic portals appear in front of him

the green portal

is full of trees

cold winds fresh airs

lots of flowers and butterflies

nature creatures all around

beautiful birds singing

as if its heaven

the red portal

is full of stones

dark and hot
team of bats flying around

demons starring at you

human shouting for help

as if its hell

if you are Leon
which portal will you choose?

pick your answer

so now

if i'm about to tell you

that you'll get killed by a stone giant if you choose the green zone

and you'll also get killed in the red zone

which path will you take?

not taking both?

what if you'll get murdered when you turn back?

times like this always occurred

where you have hard choices choosing the good and bad

and you'll end up regretting if you choose wrongly

if you ask me this question

i'll tell you

i'll choose not to pick any roads

and turn back

if i die in the portals

no ppl can save me

while if i die on the road

ppl can save me =]

Secret~

In the heavens
stays devils and angels
devils territory is the whole west sky
while angels is the whole east sky
wars between them had been going on for centuries

one day
a devil name Luke is on a mission
to spy on angel's territory
so he hide beside a waterfall nearby their army camp
eating all the fresh fruits which can't be found in devil's territory
everything is rotten over there

soon, a female angel approached the waterfall to get some water
Luke saw her from the top of an apple tree
the beautiful waterfalls
warm sun shines
birds playing around the trees
while the beautiful angel knee down and fill her pot with water
such beautiful view
Luke hopes to draw this view out
with his gift talent, drawing
but devils are forbidden to use their talents
all they can do is fight, fight, and fight

Luke flew down and approach her
but the angel is so calm, starring at him
she did not even take a step back
'Don't worry, little angel
I will not harm you
Just that I couldn't resist such a beautiful view'
as soon as he finished talking
the angel immediately flew back to her camp
he is afraid that she will inform the soldiers bout his appearance in the angel's territory
so he hide within the waterfall

'Helo? Where are you devil?
Mr devil? I know you're still here~'
Luke peaks out of the waterfall
and she's standing beside the waterfall along with a sketch book, alone
he flew out
'Mr devil, can you draw out that view you meant?'
Luke is very excited
he was shocked that this angel actually can reads his thoughts
then he flew up to the apple tree and started drawing

he finishes his drawing in a lightning speed and he gave it to her
that piece of art, is the most detailed, beautiful and amazing artwork she ever saw
She pulls out her hand, 'Krystal'
'Luke', shaking her hand
Luke is surprised to know that angels are so friendly
so Krystal becomes the very first angel friend of Luke
Krystal promised not to show the art to anyone else
and so from that day, Luke came to the waterfall everyday to meet with Krystal

Luke
is a very kind, cute and sweet devil
he hates war
he likes peace
he loves drawing and singing
he also likes dark places
he likes lying down in the forest at night to enjoy the natures wind and air
and he is always dreaming and waiting for the perfect girl to appear

Krystal
is an active, pretty and lovely angel
she hates war too
and loves peace
she enjoys seeing master pieces of ppl's arts
she also likes dark places to chill her mind
nature lover
married by force because of her parents
she doesn't love her husband at all and she's still a virgin
she's always dreaming for her perfect guy to come across

Everyday Krystal will bring along her home cook foods while Luke will be waiting within the waterfall
Luke just can't resist the warm foods
soon
They falled in love
they both noticed that they are their own dream type of lovers
they started their relationship
2 different races which are forbidden to do so
but no matter how much they love each other
they can't even have sex
as god will punish an angel and demon child's parents
and kill all three of them

Luke always wondered whether he had made a very wrong decision
he scares he will regret about everything happen
but everytime he has this thoughts,
Krystal will kissed him
so that he couldn't speak
and says,
'my dear, don't think that much
I'm yours although I can't be with you
and shhh~
it is our little secret
don't let the flying angels around heard us~'
Luke lifted his head, calmed down by her beautiful voice
Only her voice could free his mind
Though it is only temporary, he is still glad
He is sure that she is truly the one
He would share his life together, forever
'Krystal, my dear, your always there
whenever I need you
Your always there for me
What would happen to me
If you were taken away from my side~'

Just as Luke finishes talking
The husband of Krystal came flying down
With his stare, sharp as an eagle
With his sword, furious with anger
'Krystal, how could you meet up with this imbecile being !
I was right to have someone following you
When you became unusually different
These past few days
I couldn't believe that you would betray me
You've disappoint our parents and
Especially me'
As Luke is about to be stabbed by Krystal's husband mighty sword
Krystal blocked the sword for him
the sword pierces through her directly at the heart
blood flows out from her injury and her mouth
her husband was shocked
he dropped his weapon with fear and tears

Luke hugged Krystal tightly
'why did you even do that...
you know this day will come...
I accept the fact that I will be slayed by your husband...
But why, do you block it?'
Krystal replied weakly
'Silly you..
There's only 1 reason...
I love you..
As simple as that..'
She smiled with a mouth full of blood
gently touching Luke's face
and she ends her breath

A dream~

Your face
your eyes
your shadow
your voice
especially
your smile...

free birds flying on the skies
blue sky and clear clouds
and a beautiful you right beside me
although we are walking on a busy streets
car hons everywhere and ppl making noises
in such crowded and noisy place
I still feel peace
harmony
and most importantly
LOVE

to me
you're everything
without you
i'm liveless
because of you, I worked hard for our future
I gave you everything and make sure you're satisfied with all of it
I know you loved me like no one else too

yet..
You left me one day
I called you
I came to your house and find you
I even stopped working
but you never even pick up my calls
even if you pass by me
you didn't say hello as if i'm transparent
you have been treating me the same for 2 years
long enough that my heart are crushed into dust

then
I found out that you're getting married with someone
I cried out for 2 days long
I hide outside your wedding ceremony
looking at you
I missed that smile you gave me
and now you gave that smile to the person you're marrying
I'm jealous
angry
and I cried once again
I dare not continue to watch it
so I left

Rain falls as I walked out
As if god is crying for me
I walked and cried under the rain
as I pass by the graves near the church
I decided to drop by my mom for a visit
I told me mom everything
Life's so unfair
and you left me without a word
out of sudden, a lightning strike right beside me and it hits someone's grave
I approach the grave
and I saw
my name on the rock
and I just found out
I was actually dead for 2 years already..

my hearts stopped beating
I was actually dead? I couldn't believe it!
so everything happened makes sense!
I was transparent after all
she couldn't see me
she couldn't even hear my outcry..
suddenly I got a flashback on what happened:

I was involved in a car accident
a car banged me from behind with a speed of more than 120km/h
I couldn't even feel the pain
Immediately I died
and yet I dreamt that I was walking home
along with the presents I bought for an exchange of your smile..
you cried right beside my bed when I was gone
everyday
every single second
your face is always full of tears..

I'm sorry my dear
now I know everything is just a dream..
I am happy
that you finally gain back the smile and really smile like the usual you
I am happy
that you found someone that can replace the dead me
because I can no longer take care of you..
I have been awake for 2 years in this dream
and now
its time for me to rest in this dream..
This is the very first and the very last time I'm saying it to you,
I love you my dear~
and goodbye~

As soon as I fall back into 'sleep'
her tears starts falling although she's smiling so happily..
Today
22nd March
is your wedding
is also my death anniversary

Because of you

today woke up later than usual~

I smsed with princess when she's in sunway having seminar
and she wanted to know bout my past.
So yeah, I told her everything
I thought, she would dislike me
I thought, all my efforts are nothing at all
I thought, that it ends here.
These are truely from my heart :
'I started to hate girls right after that.
Love in my life started to fade away and my life become lifeless.
I live according to my will and I ignored feelings of others.
To be very honest, after since I know you
I felt love once again from your smiles.
everything seems brighter in my eyes
and i got pulled out from the devil world of mine.
Thats where my blog name came from =]'

I know you smiled happily and for a very looong time, someone told me XD
but I'm happy to hear that, even I didn't see it, but I can feel it =]

came back to wangsa maju on evening
and my friend came over invited me to go swimming~
I was halfway smsing with princess and I forgotten to inform her bout it
so I went down swimming for bout 1 hour-ish~ *komenasai*
made her wait and wait and wait~
and she smsed me when i'm back
'wei~ no reply de~'
i'm sorry!

we then chat online till dinner time~
and so I went out for dinner with roommate and friends
when I'm back, she's not online anymore~
So
I called her =]
25 minutes of chit-chat
lots of laughter and smiles
although there isn't any topic at all
but my heart beat gets faster every single minute
Its because of you
You're the special someone that appeared
I do have special feelings on you =]
If I had that chance
I will hug you so tight now =3
along with a kiss on your lips

Good nite princess~
if only I could give you a good nite kiss~

两个人分手后做了朋友

如果两个人分手之后做了朋友那说明我从来没爱过你，如果两个人分手以后依旧可以做分手之前做的事,那说明我想让你记住我，如果两个人分手之后我不再见你并大声说我恨你,那说明我不舍得离开你，如果两个人分手之后在彼此的世界消失了,那说明我真的爱你。



分手时,沉默是最好的问题,最圆满的答案.

恋爱是甜蜜的,分手是难免的.谁不是哭过几次,痛过几次,才找到最后的爱.分手是必经的,但有些问题不必问.



1.不要问:为什么要分手.

无论答案是什么,都是你难以接受的原因.



2.不要问:你有没有爱过我.

爱过如何,未爱过又如何,总之这一刻就是不爱.



3.不要问:我做错了些什么.

爱不是讲对错,而是讲感觉.相爱是谈情,不是讲理.当爱的感觉已经不存在,对或错又可以挽回些什么?



4.不要问:我有什么不好.她有什么好.我有什么比不上她.

何必逼对方,再一次侮辱你,打击你的自信心.



5.不要问:难道你不记得我们以前快乐的日子了么.

她/他要离开你,就是因为她/他要现在的快乐,和将来的快乐.



6.不要问:不如我们重新来过.

这个哀求,只会让对方觉得你更可怜,更卑微.



7.不要问:我们以后还可不可以做朋友.

这样拖泥带水,对方只会感到厌烦.

爱是最美好的记忆.爱过了,曾经拥有过了,就要学会知足,何必为难对方,让曾经的美好变了味道.让她/他曾经给过的温柔成为孤独时温暖自己的美妙的回忆.回忆是美丽的…珍藏走过的轨迹…握紧现有幸福…

So..

working without a cert is hard

working with a cert and expecting high salary is even harder

so

jobless ppl is everywhere in Malaysia

buying a digital camera is expensive

buying a DSLR is even more expensive

so

ppl decided to use phone camera

Expressing yourself in words is difficult

expressing your love towards your crush in words is even more difficult

so

ppl often uses sms-ing or the middle person to help sending info's

just like me,

like a loser.

wanted to talk to someone I liked,

but no coverage at all,

like a small lil turtle.

silence is all I do,

scaring her and making her feel embarrassed,

and keeping her waiting for me to take an action.

I'm sorry gal,

I didn't mean to.

If I'm given the chance to redo everything:

I would ask you to come over and look at the theme I made for you

tell me its nice with a smile and you'll see me smiling the whole day

and I'll ask you to walk around with only me alone while my friends can walk themselves

lots of jokes and you'll enjoy it

and after the lunch we had

I would asked you to close your eyes

and given you a kiss on your cheek

a sweet memory you will never forget.

well anyway, we did a 'family' photo in pizzahut XD

and also.. first time revealing it..

my princess

Trust You

Like flowers dancing in the wind
Like rain moistening the earth
Although this world thrives on interdependence
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do we have to part?

Even if you're faraway
In the depths of this heart
Completely filled with that gentle smile
The pieces of you that I held tight
Are still connected in spite of pain, so
I believe that we'll meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you
I trust you
Share your loneliness with me
I love you
I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we're together we can believe in each other
Don't leave me

Who watched the world end?
Who proclaimed the end of the journey?
It's a long night, and we cannot see the answers
Still I hope you keep to the road you believed in
Because at the end, light is waiting.

The song that you taught me
Is still, in the deepest reaches of my heart
Echoing, along with that gentle voice.
Overflowing droplets of feelings
Warmly run down my cheeks
"Become stronger
Believe
We're connected"

I love you
I trust you
The tears I've shed for you
I love you
I trust you
Have taught me what love is
No matter how lost you get
I'll be by your side
I'm always by your side

No matter how lost you get
I'll be by your side
Because we're together we can believe in each other
Don't leave me

【好男人都死了】

一個好男人經過多少不如意之後他會變成壞男人
好男人的定義是甚麼？

壞男人的定義是甚麼？

你會知道

男人其實本不壞

十歲以前，他什麼都不懂，就不說了

十三、四歲的時候，開始對女孩有好感，但是那時候他離女孩遠遠的，並且以討厭女孩自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。

十五歲的時候，聽到大人們說某某男人好花好花，跟女朋友玩了一夜情就不要的之类话题。
这时的我们覺得這些人真狠毒，自己將來一定要做個癡情的男人，一定要一生只愛一個人

十六歲的時候，他喜歡上了一個女孩，但是他不敢和她說。仍然和往常一樣，臟兮兮的在灰土飛揚的篮球场上打篮球。只在女孩走出校門的時候，躲在二層的窗戶上看她的背影，他已经足够了。

十七歲的時候，有個女孩喜歡上了他，但是他離她很遠，心裏面只有自己那個女孩，他覺得看別的女孩都是對她的不忠。

十八歲的時候，看了一個MTV，感動得想哭；他想，如果自己的女孩失去了雙眼，他一定會像男主角會毫不猶豫的把自己的眼睛給她，讓她能看到光明。（大家心理面曾经也会为了心爱的人有这种打算吧！）

十九歲的時候，高考了。終於和自己暗戀的女孩分別，坐火車去學校的時候，感覺自己離她越來越遠，心像被掏空了一樣。還在想自己一定不會忘記她，等到自己成功以後一定要去找她。

二十歲的時候，聽到有人講黃色笑話，覺得這人真可恥。

二十一歲的時候，她的回信中告訴他，自己有了男朋友。他為此偷偷的哭了一個晚上。

二十二歲的時候，他向一個女孩表白，女孩說：「你是個好人，可是我還小。」他想，我的確是個好人，然後他說：「沒關係，我可以等妳。」
心想，我不會像那些花心的人一樣，三年五年我也能等。

二十三歲的時候，聽說自己還小的女孩跟一個帥哥戀愛了。他很納悶，長大原來可以這樣快。

二十四歲的時候，他又向一個女孩表白，女孩說：「你是個好人，可是我並不適合你。」他納悶很久，我是好人，妳怎麼還不適合我呢？

二十五歲的時候，他又追求一個女孩，女孩接受了他。他開始很幸福的為未來拼搏，他想，一時的開心只是暫時的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快樂的未來，但是，半年以後，女孩和他分手了，只是因為另外一個男孩會說讓她開心的話。女孩說：「你是個好人，是我對不起你。

至此，他似乎明白了問題所在－－他是個好人！

二十六歲的時候，他開始墮落。打扮得時尚而酷，而且漸漸的學習著討好女孩的話。不久，他有了個女朋友，雖然他對她也很好，可是，他心裏知道，自己並不愛。

二十七歲的時候，他和女孩分手了。他對女孩說：「妳是個好女孩，是我對不起妳

二十八歲的時候，他嘗試了一夜情，發現別人能做的，自己也一樣。他发现那些大人们说的他都做过了。

二十九歲的時候，他學會了講黃色笑話，並且以看旁邊的女孩子臉紅為樂趣。

三十歲的時候，他忽然發現自己變得很有能力追求到女孩，但是卻沒有了愛的能力。

其實每個男孩，本來都是想做一個感情專一的好男人的。

其實每個男人，本來看女孩子都是看臉而不是身材。

其實每個男人，本來都是不會講黃色笑話的。

其實每個男孩，本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠的。

只是，沒有任何女孩愛這樣的男孩，她們覺得這樣的男孩太幼稚，太古板，沒有情趣。

於是男孩開始改變，變成女孩喜歡的那種 嘴角掛著壞壞表情。

開始學會說甜言蜜語而不是心裏想說的話。

開始學會假裝關心，學會給女孩送小飾物討好她，學會如何追求，如何把握愛情。

或者看破紅塵，遊戲情場，成為女人恨恨的那種男人。

他們可以很容易俘獲女孩子的心，但是他們也會在黑的夜裏叼著煙流淚。

心裏有愛的時候，沒有女孩；有了女孩，卻永遠沒有了愛的感覺！

當男人聽到女人抱怨世上沒有一個好男人時候，他們不會再去努力做個好男人，只是微笑著擦肩而過……

當你的身邊出現一個對感情傻酣酣，也許生活沒有情趣

也許嘴巴不甜，也許囉嗦，也許長得不出色，也許對於自己感情執著

對於愛情充滿憧憬的男人


請不要再傷害他們...請不要再抱怨天底下的好男人都死哪去了

因為....他們出現時妳們不曾珍惜過...

Could I..

I can work hard in studies,
study hard and ask lots of questions,
I can finish up 5 past year papers without complain,
I teaches everyone who need help with and never gets it wrong.
But when the exam comes, could I...?

I can work many hours a day,
working hard to get promoted,
I can work all day without a break,
I help every colleague who needs help with all I can.
But when the manager gave me a project to handle, could I...?

I can play games 24 hours a day,
playing hard to become the top,
I can play without taking foods,
I kill players who kill low lvls until he dare not log in his account.
But when the top guild comes for guild war, could I...?

Everytime situation like this happened, I end up failing it..
I hated myself, and questioned myself, why..
I couldn't find the answer at all..
Is it over confident? Or too proud of myself?
Or is it I'm just unlucky?
Who knows? Probably...

Yet I get to know you..
So pretty and always with a lovely smile..
I tried to capture your heart with all I can..
Date you, sms you, call you, even making things by my own hands..
And now when I think further,
When the day I confess to you comes, could I...?

uhhhhhhh felt so stupid and useless -.-
still,
1 thing I always done it right.
I never blames the outcome, and at least I tried my best. =3

So
if at the end you tell me that I'm still not good enough to be with you,
princess,
I just wanna tell you,
I love you like no one else ever loves you before =3